was kind of reluctant to put up this post initially.

in fact, i am also having the thoughts to close down this blog and perhaps set up one private one so that it becomes my one and only secret diary.

but there again, why should i do that?

anyway, not many people knows about this blog.

perhaps less than 10.

and who are they who reads it?

perhaps only my friends. my close friends.

(seriously, no one will bother to read this kind of blog with no pics, no nothing. there are only complains after complains. it's a negative blog)

i hanged out with yilin yesterday.

it was my 1st time to Orchard Ion. OMG! how turtle can i be?

BUT IT IS SERIOUSLY DAMN NICE! i swear.

i am like super excited la.

gonna bring my mama there soon!

speaking of that, mama is down with flu.

* get well soon okay, TOMATO?

then, we went to buy alcohols and went to Teo Heng and sing.

it's damn cheap there. $14/room/hour.

i have been such an alcoholic. been drinking at least twice every week.

i gonna cut that down. it's really bad for health.

not sure if this is a good thing or not..

my alchohol tolerance level has been increasing with the recent indulgence.

alcohol doesnt seem to help me solve problems anymore.

(to many people, alchohol doesnt help at all. but to me, sometimes, it can help)

spent the whole day watching 命中注定我爱你。

very nice. very touching.

but, real life is never the same as drama la!

right now. i am feeling kind of emo mo mo.

was cleaning my room.

suddenly, it just strike me to switch on my old sony ericssion phone.

normally, it doesnt work. cannot be switched on anymore.

cuz it is spolit and that's why i got myself a new phone then.

perhaps, heaven just wanna play some jokes on me.

IT DID WORK.

i switched it on.

read through the msges.

they were about an event happened in 2008.

i dont know why but suddenly,

my cheeks seemed to be a bit wet.

my eyes felt a bit watery

(perhaps it was from tired eyes from watching the drama on laptop the whole day)

i am actually very confused now.

i have to come up with a decision soon.

and once that is out.

i will be determined to stick to that.

i am confused because, i am not sure if i should come up with that decision.

or, i should just let fate decides it all.

人生最痛苦的事情，并不是生离死别，而是我站在你面前，你却不知道我爱你。